I'm not afraid of a lot of things... Probably the fear that fuels the most other fears is that I fear pain. I always have. If I think that something might hurt...there's a good possibility that I won't do it. Pain scares me. I've never been in intense pain...and I never intend to. People ask how I've gotten through my life so far without breaking a bone...I'm careful! That would hurt!
That's the reason I'm afraid of heights (and have been all my life). I look at how far down it is and go "oh gee. If I fall that's REALLY going to hurt." Then, of course, I don't want to go up to the edge, ect! I'm getting much better about my fear of heights because I'm learning more and more what's safe and what isn't... I'm also learning that the possibility of getting hurt is less than I thought...
Also, I fear desertion or rejection. This might sound crazy; but I'm a people-person and I don't like the idea of being rejected or abandoned by someone I previously considered a good friend. Uuuug. Sometimes, but not always, I'm afraid that my friends who are older than me (lots!) are going to grow up and 'out grow' me. Like...not want to talk to me or something because they're older and I'm younger and...yeah. Weird, but true.
And one thing that I'm pretty scared about right now is that when I go to college this coming fall that I won't make any friends. I want to make friends through college so badly! But, you know, I'm afraid that I won't be brave enough to really talk to anybody and that they won't really want to talk to me either cuz they're going to have their own friends... Creepy. I went all through Driver's Ed without making a single friend, so I find the idea a little intimidating.
I guess I made some amazing friends in my web design class though...so... We'll see. I'm a little scared that I won't know how to handle real friendships even if I'm pretty good at internet ones! :P
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